I will be turning fifty in just a few months. I find myself looking forward to this milestone in a way I did not expect even ten years ago as I look back and see how blessed my life has been. With the passage of years, even the difficult times from childhood seem like blessings in disguise.
Growing up, my family was always poor, but the larger our family became, the worse things got. By the time I started sixth grade, we were a family of nine. My parents had already split up and reconciled more than once. That year it was becoming clear that there wouldn't be a lasting reconciliation. It was not a happy time in my life.
Growing up, my family was always poor, but the larger our family became, the worse things got. By the time I started sixth grade, we were a family of nine. My parents had already split up and reconciled more than once. That year it was becoming clear that there wouldn't be a lasting reconciliation. It was not a happy time in my life.
Back then, Holton, Kansas had three elementary schools, including a small school out in the country just for the sixth-graders (lower left in photo above). Sixth grade had three classes of twenty or so students. Mrs. Quinn's classroom, my homeroom, was located in a trailer outside the main building.
Innie Me helping Mrs. Tolin serve lunch |
When I was sixteen, we moved to another small town and I never saw Mrs. Quinn again, though I follow her posts on Facebook now. I have never forgotten that at a time in life when circumstances made me feel like I wasn't good enough, I had a teacher who thought I was good at something. Good enough to dream big.
The Rose lyrics (Bette Middler)
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose.
Mrs. Quinn didn't just teach me sixth grade English or Math, she planted a seed that grew and blossomed into self confidence.
Mrs. Quinn, thank you for the role you played in my life story!
We were a very happy family at one time, until Mom and Dad split up for the first time in 1968. I think that's when things really started going downhill. I never got my confidence back until I joined the Army, and even more when I met Mary. It's always nice having someone love you who doesn't have to. I think the scars of Mom and Dad's marriage scarred us all, but I also think we older ones learned how not to be married, and that hasn't been a bad life-lesson.
ReplyDeleteYou remember a lot of details about mom and dad's marriage that I don't since you're older. I did learn that I didn't want that kind of marriage. Besides being grateful that I had a few good teachers growing up who gave me some needed self-confidence, I'm glad we had our little Nazarene church and Grandma and pa Cramer to make things a little easier to deal with.
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